long night

so caleb took a nap at around 6. brynna took a nap around there too. grrrreat night ahead of us, i'm thinking. it's 10:23p and neither of them seems ready to go down just yet. we'll see how it goes.

someone's waiting for you

so when dave started listening to this song from "the rescuers" with caleb, i thought, gosh, what a sappy song...so dave. i made fun of him for listening to it over and over and getting all gushy about the lyrics.

then i listened to it. awwww...so sweet. so sad. so touching. i now love it too!

and hearing caleb sing it...that's priceless. i gotta get video of him singing it...but just imaging..."be brave lillo one, hold your head up though no one is near...always keep a lillo prayer in your pocket..." soooooo freakin' cute!

sibling rivalry?

although i have two brothers and two sisters, i am an only child. hehe. makes sense, right? i am the only child of my mom and dad...they both have two other children each. i know i was meant to be on this earth cuz god had to work some special magic to get my mom and dad together...til this day i still can't even imagine how they were attracted to one another to begin with. lol.

anyways, since my older brother and sister are much older than me, 11 and 13 years, and i only saw my younger sister and brother every other weekend, i basically was an only child. my older brother moved out when i was still in elementary school, so i didn't really have the real sibling in the same house experience.

i wonder what caleb and brynna's relationship will be like. for now, he totally loves on her, and she mostly just pushes him away like he's just a pain in her okole. he's always been very loving and nice to her. she's always been indifferent or irritable with him. lol.

lately we've noticed that caleb is getting less tolerant of brynna. before, he'd just walk away and find something else to do if she came and took his toy or invaded his space. now, though, he'll pull toys back or even grab her hand roughly. he's also realizing that his size puts him at an advantage and will bump her on occasion. we've had to scold him recently for that.

brynna, though, is a bull, and will loudly screech when caleb takes something away from her. she also hits, but at this point it's harder to scold her for it because she doesn't truly understand yet.

i really hope that they have a close relationship...and i hope that they take care of one another...and i hope that brynna doesn't have to beat people up for caleb. lol.

daddy's bad...

on sunday night dave wanted to eat ice cream...mocha almond fudge...and everyone knows that if you try to eat ice cream in front of the kids, they want some too. he ended up giving brynna a few bites (he says three, i think it was probably more). that night, she REFUSED to go to bed. she usually goes down at around nine with little problem. that night, not even close. caleb ended up coming to our room for some reason, so he was also lying in our bed, which i thought would end up making for a terrible night. caleb, though, was tired and just lie there with us, watching the little one go nutts.

when i say "go nutts," i mean GO NUTTS. she would energetically climb out of her bed and think it was the funniest thing ever. after many, many, many times of putting her back in, i gave up. she ran out of the room and straight to the lanai door, which she pounded on a few times. then she ran to my mom's room, which she thought was hilarious. back and forth, to the living room, back to our room. at one point she was literally spinning in circles.

finally we put her on the bed with us (well, dave body slammed her a couple times cuz he was getting so futless...but she just thought it was playing and funny!). eventually, after i dunno how long, she fell asleep...she and i with our heads on one side of the bed, dave and caleb with their heads at the other.

thankfully she slept well last night...finally...and we're hoping tonight will be another good one.

dave is banned from giving her ice cream ever again!!!!

sad

last night we went to wal-mart and i ran into one of my most memorable students yet. he was from one of my first years of teaching and i just adored this little pain in the butt. he's blackanese, and i think my being japanese and little reminded him of his mom so i became a surrogate mom in school. he was such an immature, emotional little guy and i spent many after school days helping him with science, math, english, whatever. we'd often drop him off at home, and stop at mcdonalds on the way to get him something small to eat since sometimes his mom wasn't home yet. he didn't want to go home one day after tutoring and i had to call my counselor to help me figure out how to get him home.

he's 21 now. isn't that crazy??? he ended up at job corps to get his diploma, and has finally settled himself in a job at home depot, which he seems to enjoy. it's sooooo weird to see this little guy bigger than me, and i think it's a trip for him to see me and dave married with kids (he had dave for pe and says that dave bullied him and he has repressed memories of dave's torment...lol!).

it was so nice to see him...but it also got me a little bit sad. i don't have that kind of relationship with my kids anymore. i dunno if it's because he was in a small class that i bonded with because i had them for two periods. i dunno if it's the two periods that lent itself to being closer to my kids. i just feel sad that i don't have that kind of relationship with any of my kids anymore...and it feels like i haven't had that kind of relationship with any kids for a while. the last class i feel like i kind of had those kinds of relationships with are the kids who are seniors now...that makes me sad. it really makes me want to cry.

it's something i gotta think about more...why don't i have that kind of relationship with my kids anymore???

lazy song

yesterday bruno mars' lazy song was on the radio...you know, the one that says, "today i don't feel like doing anything, i just wanna lay in my bed, don't feel like picking up the phone, so leave a message at the tone, cuz today i don't feel like doing anything, nothing at all..."

i really wonder when i will have a day like that again. just stay in pajamas, lie around, nap, watch tv, eat whatevers, just chill.

i don't really know if i had days like that pre-babies, but a day like that sounds soooo nice...

naps

caleb and naps. not happening regularly. and if it doesn't happen, the night is a disaster.

okay, maybe i'm being overly dramatic because last night sucked....but really, caleb needs a nap and his stubborn butt sometimes refuses to take one, which causes him to be an even bigger butt.

yesterday he refused to take a nap. he fell asleep for maybe ten minutes on our drive to sam's club, but then didn't want to sleep any more after that. he fell asleep at around 9:45 p.m. as i was reading to him, which tells me he was tired because he usually relishes his time alone with baba in the room after we read to him and close the door.

of course, though, this meant that he was up at 245, asking me for milk, thinking it was time for everyone else to be awake. he climbs into bed with us, drinks his milk, and moves around. i can't remember in what sequence things happened, but eventually he and i wound up in the living room because i didn't want him waking bryn. then he was in the living room alone because i left him to go back to my bed since lying on the couch with him is totally uncomfortable. then i was back in the living room with him as he whined for his blankie. got it for him, then he decided he wanted to be in bed with daddy. put him there and left them to go back to sleep on the couch, cuz at this point brynna was also in our bed after falling out of her bed.

needless to say, i am tired.

and i have a freakin' iep again today. blech. tired, tired, tired. i wish it were a long weekend all over again this weekend!