Prayer WORKS!

Monday night...Caleb wakes up at 1:00 a.m....fusses, cries, ultimately drinks his milk and goes back to sleep within about 40 minutes...wakes at 4:00 a.m....fusses, cries, wails, yells, holds his breath for an extremely long time, turns purple, doesn't drink his milk, passes out an hour later after probably denying too much oxygen to his brain, sleeps on my chest and on his tummy on our bed until 8:00 a.m...wakes up famished and fussy again.

Tuesday night...I already feel anxiety as evening approaches...I'm anticipating another rough night...Dave feeds Caleb at 10:30ish...he fusses, cries, drinks his milk...goes to bed at around 11:30...as Caleb cries and Dave tends to him, I start to cry thinking that this is what I have in store for me for the rest of the night...but I pray hard too...and Caleb sleeps until 4:00...I get up before him, just to check, and once he starts to whimper a little I pick him up, change his diaper, and Dave gets his milk. He quietly and wonderfully drinks his 4 oz of milk and goes back to sleep. Thank GOD!!!! At around 6:00 he starts to fuss...Dave grabs him and brings him to bed...he sleeps on my chest until about 7:00, then gets up and starts fussing. At least I'm well rested and the fussing is deal-able. Dang.

Today is our ONE MONTH check up...lots of questions for doctor...should I even keep pumping? If I do, can I take some kind of supplement to help milk production? Can we try the ColicCalm drops that are supposed to help with gassiness and fussiness? How come he had runny doodoos yesterday? Can we start taking him out? Anything else we can do to stop him from holding his breath and turning purple? Is that affecting his brain? Are we going to have a chubby kid or will his growth ease up eventually? How do I differentiate between baby blues and depression?