Honestly, in the beginning (like the first month or so), there were times when I wondered why I don't have these overflowing feelings of intense love for Caleb. Like, it came here and there, but mostly it was frustration, anxiety, cluelessness, and sadness. Now, though....I can't get over how cute Caleb is...lol! I bet all mom's must feel that, huh? I can't get enough of hugging him and kissing him and burying my nose into his fat neck. I love smelling him...his neck, his head, his ears. I love it when he knows it's me and will give me a great big gummy smile! I love to watch him as he watches himself in the mirror, alternating between amazement and sly smiles at himself. I love watching him interact with his dolly friends, smiling and talking to them. I love when he goes in his crib and falls asleep like a good boy. I love anticipating what he needs and providing it fr him, like having a sixth sense for my baby boy. I want another baby, but at the same time, I can't imagine loving someone else like I love Caleb.

**side note...I am taking my last week of pills, which is the time when I get super emotional,which may be part of the reason for this mushy post.

Ohmygosh...Caleb was just on his tummy on his Boppy and while I was writing this he pushed forward and was face planting on the carpet...uhoh, he's not too happy now.